There's no one you can trust

Something that I did few weeks ago.Martell is feeling cold..

I don't know why, when I know there's somebody by your side, I feel a bit upset.

(I guess the whole world is guessing who is the guy)

One simple sentence can make people thinks a lot. Seriously, when Jay was dating with Hou PeiChen, I feeling upset too. Believe it or not, up to you.

我是一个喜欢做梦的女孩.简单到只要梦想可以在梦里实现就已经很满足.最近在追看韩版花样少男.(流星花园)结果,能被我认同的偶像剧,还是只有这部,和而已。好好看哦！

我说过我想要修读心理学吧！因为我希望能够看穿别人。而且，我不容易猜穿他们。这正是EQ高人所应具备的条件吧。于是我只好伪装，也只好看着你伪装着自己，继续对自己不诚实。

身边很多人都不满意自己的另一半吧？从以前到现在，我没有听过有人会很开心的炫耀自己的另一半有多好，我只听过“这些都是你表面看到的东西”“其实我很想跟他分手”“我对他已经没有感觉，只是不知道怎样开口”“你看我好，我看你好罢了”

如果我每次遇见同一个人讲重复的话，我的心里就会有个OS...

有本事你就把这些话跟你的他讲...

我承认-不轻易相信别人是我的缺点，但是我情愿不相信。因为当你看到事情的真相的时候，你就庆幸自己当初作的决定。但其实,应该要有三分信,就像要维持一段细水长流的爱情,就要彼此相信.

我正在等待别人替我安排命运。但是机会又是自己争取的。像具俊表（道明寺）说的-与其不做而后悔，不如做了再后悔。于是，我就一步步地跟着自己的感觉走。很多事情没有所谓的错与对，看你从什么角度看待它。

不要问我为什么不相信你，因为我不能确定，我自己也是不是一个可以值得信赖的人。Amanda说过，我是她一个值得信赖的朋友。也是从那个时候我学会了trustworthy这个字眼。thanks babe！或许我应该这么说，不让自己显得很偏激，要相信，但不能尽信。

不知道为什么这个话题传开后有人反对我的说法，你们的人生，难道没有被出卖过，被背叛过吗？如果一个男人/女人此刻看着你的眼睛对你说“我爱你”，请相信当时是真心的。但是过后如果他们忘记了，你就得跟着忘了这回事。

好想去唱K...

Opps I did it again

Although I looks fat but I dont mind to share it here. Nice pic, nice moment nice place!Me, YenYen, Esther and cutie Samuel went to the beach! Yo!beach party!!

Aha, guess what, I am BACK!!
Even you gimme thousand jobs to do here (lukut), I would enjoy and love it.
Something that I wrote during the journey from JB to seremban.

三小时的车程，平坦的高速公路。除了睡觉，看杂志，我想最好的消遣就是-发白日梦。
发白日梦的好处可多了，既不用劳碌身心，又不用付出代价。
“喂，我昨晚梦见我跟XXX吃KFC 叻！哈哈！”
“这种就是所谓的日有所思，夜有所梦。”
好，我知道现实总是残酷的。俗不知，人有三分之一的时间都在休息睡觉，倒不如善用时间来好好发白日梦，好让生活过的快乐一些。至少我的人生，在闭着眼睛度过的时刻是那么的动人美丽-和周杰伦逛街，和古天乐跑步，和Zac Efron 打篮球，和Harry Potter坐扫把去宇宙。

不知道是否因为那天和朋友和他一岁大的孩子逛街一天，突然幻想起自己当妈妈来。虽然不容易，连推婴儿车都很考我的功夫，但是看到宝宝可爱的笑容，（尤其是那种很难逗到他笑的BB）就觉得一切都是值得的。

My god, I feel like having a cute baby, like Travis!为什么他们可以那么可爱无辜，他们的脑袋装的是什么东西？他看到我这个半生熟aunty，有什么想法？以前我觉得自己很没有小朋友缘，但是渐渐的因为一些朋友的弟妹，让我有机会进入他们的世界。这次，更是我以一个朋友的身份抱朋友的孩子，感觉好棒！这是我第一次到婴儿部买礼物。I enjoy buying things for babies! Yeah!! yo yo~!

He is very very cute!!!Baby Travis!

Dont force me... I want to have a baby, indeed!!wahaha!

His smile is the best thing for family and me!

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Happy 22nd Birthday to Penny!!I will miss you no matter where you are, I WILL GO SHANGHAI!do remember me baby!
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Nee nee's 22nd Birthday- K box Cinileisure.

Love you NeeNee!! Muakz!May your dreams come true!

2am-Lukut castle-28.07- waiting for a miracle

Thanx twins (Kuanyee and Leeyee )for the day! And I received two gifts today! What a lovely fren you are!hahaz!Thanx~!--- Picture coming soon..

希望姐姐的计划顺顺利利，哥哥懂得照顾自己，爸妈身体健康，弟弟成熟懂事，自己快点找到工作！

Good nite, Lukut.

Solar eclipse

I cooked a very very very undelicious fried rice - 4 people meal.
I am killing myself and being so confident at first.
How come.. I asked myself.
Luckily today add in something to try again,mm.. taste much more nicer. Watching "Night at the museum" again.. haha!
I found a girl who is exactly an alien.
She is "Huang Hui Ci" and please take a look at this famous lady in Taiwan in the video!!!hahahahahahahaha!



Today I designed 20 tisue cases. Hmm, satisfied with what I did.wahaha!
As to feel more about what love is, I started to watch some drama from Korea and Taiwan.Damn boring... Although they are always romantic but.. hmm...
Someone said today is solar eclipse, and earth break, tsunami.. Chey!
Guess what, I have been experienced these both which I langsung dono... T.T

2005 Dec- Port Dickson beach. On the day of tsunami I was swimming in the sea and was enjoying the big waves of the sea. The next day I get a shock that a lot a lot of people dead in tsunami.

2006 Dec- Taiwan earth break. I just left the place which havin serious earth break few hours before. I was playing games with the taiwanese there at night and suddenly the birds all fly in group,I still dono.I am slow.I remember my family were all calling me from Malaysia and Singapore for more than 20 misscall, to see if I am safe. I love you all!

I wore a shorts which is quiet big for me one month ago. I found it tight now, I very scared I told my brother.After 10 mins, we go and eat chicken rice like nothing happen.

My hair is shorter-5"

I wanted to watch solar eclipse but I sleep like pig until 1030am today.

IQ question time!
一个糖果一元，三张糖果纸可以换一个糖果。
小明有15元，他可以吃到几颗糖果？
Think carefully before you answer me!
Mystery gifts for those who get the correct answer!haha!

AM I STUPID

I think I am stupid.

我不知道是这个国家小还是容易上当的人多，像我这样的人居然被搭讪过好几次-请问你有没有兴趣当我们的平面模特儿？

像这种我多数不加以理会，因为我绝对有所谓的自知之明。
但是，刚刚和朋友道别后，我独自走在shopping centre里，突然有个身穿制服的人喊住我，是新传媒(新加拨电视台)的工作人员。"ok,listen. We are from the singapore mediacorp....Drama actor...You need not...THIS IS NOT A JOKE, I AM NOT KIDDING WITH YOU!You are what we were looking for!!!" ...Ok, you are fierce enough...But, this might not be a joke but if I said Yes, that would be a joke for myself...

And when I said "No".. He said:" Ok thanx, bye!"..
The conversation ended like that.

Sometime I think, is not I don want to believe others, I am not believe in myself too.
But seriously, I know who am I and I know what is the fate for my entire life.
Yeah of course I have dream. But... no no no, it shouldn't be truth.

哇！不然我来说一次“yes!”然后不小心一夜之间一炮而红....哇哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！
神经病，还是现实一点吧小朋友...
But, I am not young anymore, I guess.

如果有一天你们不小心看到我在电视上出现...
Job look for me I don wan, I go look for job who don wan me。
我已经不相信别人和自己到一种无可救药的地步。
可悲的人生继续着...
Please stay away from Juliet

First time

DANG DANG DANG DANG!!New release.

I want to share a very fightful thing with everyone who are reading this.

Once upon a time... (which is yesterday night 2am).There's some one call "xiao qiang" fly into my room. He is around 6cm big and I became the hero of the night.

凄凉的夜晚，刚跟朋友在线上道别他就飞进来了。于是，我马上用手关着嘴巴，深怕吵醒在隔壁睡觉的哥哥。于是我走出房间拿了蚊油冲进来。

PUSHI!!!!PUSHI!!!......................

终于它输了。身体朝着天空在跳disco。我鼓起勇气把它扫进垃圾桶里。然后我恍然大悟，凡是小强走过的地方，都留下了痕迹-蚊油。于是我就抹地，一直重复抹同一个地方几次。再看时钟-凌晨三点钟...

然后就照惯例的写写心情日记。“今天，我很勇敢，杀死了人生第一只蟑螂...”

两分钟前，我亲自开了人生第一粒椰子。用刀开那种！你们不觉得我很勇敢吗？！！
我觉得自己勇敢了两次...

So that day me and Shahira went for movie-The haunting house of Connectico.

That's was fun!! I love scary movie... yo yo yo! Hey brother, hope to c u soon ya!

And my lovely Jiejie made this "love heart bian dang" for me! I love YOU!!

Thanx beyi for sending it to me from Malaysia!! to Singapore.. haha!

She said she wrote " I love U" Yeah I found it!

This is the mee goreng that I cooked this morning (First time!)

Wow, there's a lot of "first time" in these few hours..

Maybe because of my jobless day, I will found that I have more protential in cooking.. MM..Considering..!! hahaha!!

Last week mei mei came sg, so we have been to some tourist place.- Esplanade, Vivo, Orchard and so forth.. haha! Hope u enjoy the day!And... it's fun to know each other super big secret right?Meimei!!! wahaha!!

Love you babe!

I look so tired only...

What makes me tired? Myself.

But I am happy with my life now!!

Wei tian thanx for ur call! I know u guys miss me and want me to go back..wahaha!

Yeah i promise i will go back if I cant survive here! wahaha!! jkjk...

I love you! (Tell the one u love everyday!)

PrimArY

zWeN, WanTing, Chao xu, JingYuan

We are much more older now!! hahaha!! ^.<

I think twins are cute! haha~

I want to have baby twins too!

Thank you frens, always be there for me. You guys are the sweet one!!

Lovez!And a lot of fren that I cant name them one by one here. Thanx for colouring my life!

ROCKS!

Miracle

秋说了一句很好笑的话：“玟啊，你连睡觉都睡到好不自然..."
哈哈，其实我个人不否认。睡觉前，对我来说是种折磨。等我找到原因时再告诉你为什么。
I was thinking about life. What is life, for you?

Life should be colourful, I guess. Life is short, I know. Life is unmanagable, I think so.Life is faith, I am sure, that's right.

Am I not suppose to be here? Am I doing the wrong decision?Am I lost?Am I alone?
No, Michael Jackson said- You are not alone.

最近简单的生活中发生了一些点点滴滴，让我觉得这个世界越来越美丽，而再艰难的时刻，我也懂得去苦中作乐，去品味我的生活。面对着没有表情的电脑，我突然没有写作的灵感。想最多最多事情的时候，居然是冲凉或大便的时候。

我放了自己一个月的假期。在那里我好开心，和一群好朋友的日子很快就过去。和爸爸妈妈吃早餐的日子，好像时间不够用。还有在家教弟弟undang，到凌晨两点钟教到睡着。现在是新加波的
两点钟，我却还可以醒着。这一趟，我没有后悔，我看见了希望，我看见了曾经暗恋过的男孩，我看见了外婆苍苍的白发，妈妈一步一步不整齐的步伐，爸爸种的小菜渐渐长大，隔壁家的小朋友长高，小学同学的可爱，还有一些很不可思议的事情。至于什么是不可思议的事情，就让我留在心里成为永远的秘密吧！

I was struggling recently. My day sounds pieceful, wake up, wash clothes, boil water, sweep floor, tidy up my room,have some bread,looking for a job..etc. Something weird happen, that affect my soul. That can change my life, and my mind,I would say.

There's some memory stuck in my mind. I thought I will never dig it out, but I did. And when everythings happen, I knew that I am not that scare to do anything. But..but...but... There's a lot of "but" in our life. And there's too much of it. And I am still living with this word, I bet you too.

There can be miracle, when you believe.
I love this song, do you?

如果你想笑的话，请你想像以下的片段。

“我又失恋了！”
“哈？你什么时候恋过了？！告诉我告诉我！”
“没有恋过啊，但是我就是失恋了啊！你管我！”
“是不是那个xx座男孩？怎么了？”
“反正我就是失恋了。好难过...”
然后，当时liveband的曲目是这样的-
1，一场游戏一场梦（如今虽然没有你我还是我自己...）
2，sorry (你是我这一生这一生最最最害怕去伤害到的人...)
3，他不爱我（我知道他不爱我...）
4，男人女人(男人男人多希望你是好人...)
5，我爱的人 ...（我爱的人他已有了爱人...）

I almost take off my high heels and throw to the stage. Cant you just sing some happy song to cheer people up?!有妇之夫，请不要接近她。她只不过是一个乌龟，适时地躲进驱壳里，不受伤害的时候才爬回出来。如果你看不懂我写些什么，那就继续不懂好了。人生，本来就有很多我们不会懂的东西。而有一些东西，永远不懂，比懂了更美丽。现在，我却相信善意的谎言。我突然开朗了，请大家多多给我善意的谎言。

I choose to live in my fairy tale, everything was so perfect in my world.Nothing ever changes. No, nothing. BUT, everything changed.

See, I hate the word-BUT.
此刻的心情？我知道。
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我知道你知道的

我记得我说过会把《好久不见》这首歌制成一部动画。我做到了，但是没有办法再这里跟大家分享。请慢慢欣赏我的一些笔绘作品吧！

忘了告诉你们，我居然真的说了这四个字。

7am, Singapore

“我好像昨天才回家，今天又回来这里了。”

姐姐和弟弟搬走了，这间家从八个人，剩下两个人。不，还有一个失恋的朋友。也还好有你，让我觉得这间家，没有那么安静。回来这里也两天了，努力重新适应这里的天气，人们，希望很快不会再失眠。

最怕有人叫我说“不要再逞强了，想哭就哭出来吧！”

忽然，睡觉时我没有转身去左方的勇气。于是就逞强只面对一个方向。你知道的。

小米和小南的故事，戏剧化的发生在现实生活中。

真的好想脱去这个躯壳，赤裸裸的告诉这个世界，我不是你们想象中那么勇敢。

要是我还是你口中所说的cryingbaby，哭一哭什么事就溜走了那该多好，可惜我已经不是以前那个我了。

身边许多朋友分分合合，让我意识到人与人之间的感情有多么脆弱，爱，要及时说出来。即使你恋上了一个有妇之夫，也要大胆说出来，就算你们之间有再多的不可能。我常常告诉感情出现问题的朋友，我能体会你们的感受，解决的方法一大堆，看你自己怎么看待而已。原来，我很会说，当事情发生的时候，保护层会一片一片剥落。

"你去了一个我一直很想去的地方，和另一个她。"

有个朋友告诉我，我看起来常常有很多秘密，在我的世界仿佛建了很高的围墙，不让人进来，也不让人看穿。然后继续用笑容掩饰. 很多年前，也有一个朋友这么说“你看起来不是真正的开心，快乐，你的笑容不是这样子的。”我一直不知道，原来你也和我一样。一直到我们努力寻找着让自己快乐的方法，日子才没有那么难过。

我终于明白为什么唱片歌手唱的都是爱情，因为爱情这个东西可以分为很多不同的剧情，结局。到底该找个自己爱的，还是自己需要的，或是爱自己的？每个人都作了不一样的选择。但是我能确定的一点是，最后那个，一定不是你心里最爱的。

你如何看待一份长达五年的爱情？

a. “不合就分，再勉强在一起也没有意思”

b. “我依然会很想她，这一辈子”

c. “我会爱着她，直到我遇上另一个人为止”

d. “缘分，还是让天注定吧”

好多的变数不断地在发生，在你意料之外的时候。所以我总是相信，best thing happend when not expected.如果我们拥有不让天来安排我们命运的勇气，那就好了。但是如果你已经看到你们的未来，请你一定要把握。

请允许我的任性，不想管你此刻的身份是什么，我好想告诉你，好多好多的故事。很庆幸我终于说了那些字。即使知道有一些梦被破解了，就不好玩了。我依然要大声地说，我不后悔！人生短短，最重要痛快！