生日快乐

步入凌晨一点钟,我独自在房里看了这部戏<生日快乐>- 刘若英,古天乐
这部长达一小时四十五分的电影, 没有很精彩,没有激情,没有爆点,却让我从头到尾痛快地哭了一遍.不知道为什么,常常把自己放在电影里的一角,好像男女主角都是我的朋友,我是站在他们身边的一个旁观者.

跟大家分享这么一个优美的故事.
小米,07.06 生日，音乐系学生,单亲家庭长大,有着外弱内刚的倔强性格. 小南, 07.01生日，家庭背景优越,帅气的外表常常是让他桃花运不断地主要条件,名副其实的花花公子,却始终如一的爱着小米.

他们像是情人,也像是很好的朋友. 当情人?不,小南太花心了,就算他不沾花惹草,也很多花花草草主动献身, 男人对这些事,绝对找不到拒绝的理由.于是小米喜欢维持这样,似有似无的关系,她一样可以和他亲热,却又不必为了他对别的女人有一样的举止而感到心痛,不安,因为她不是他的女人.

其实小南对小米的爱是真的. 但是电话中,他告诉她,他要结婚了. 对呀,你们男人做什么,跟谁在一起,跟谁结婚关她什么事了?为什么总要在伤口上撒盐? 我看到那一幕的时候, 突然好想安慰她. 这个世界就是这个样子. 即使你多么不想去知道,但是你始终还是知道了.可是呢?然后呢?

他们约定好, 不管在哪里，不管发生什么事，每年一定要跟对方说一句“生日快乐”。
就因为是一年才联络一次，这种祝福变得好珍贵，好温暖。
后来，小南死了，结婚也是假的，他让他姐姐每年07.06 一定要跟小米说生日快乐。她并不知道，原来这一切都只是一个善意的谎言。于是她每一年，就等生日那天。

曾经有位朋友跟我说过，男人可以喜欢很多人，但是他心中只爱一个人。当初，我忘了说，其实女人不也如此吗？那现在陪你过生日的，是不是你最爱的那个？我想，也许是，正在是。

明天约了一群小学同学去看电影。没有想到人真的会慢慢长大，慢慢成熟。好久不见了，希望大家过的很好。
期待中。

You are not alone

Happy 21st birthday to WAN TING!

And hope that your dreams will come true,especially the first wish that you made! wahaha!

(祝我早日告别单身) haha!

25.06.2009
Barcelone night, Michael Jackson night- The King of Pop.

My favourite song from　him is "You are not alone".

Thanks for bringing the miracle to our life. You are remembered, now and forever.

Love to stick with my fren everytime I come back to Msia.

Well, we still never get drunk. Non of us.And dont forget, Mokmok was there too! haha!

my best buddy. Mei Mei, you light up my life!

一年一度的六月又来临，这个月不比去年的漫长。

一样好多人生日的一个月。终于来到了月尾，意味着我已经休息了一个月，是时候发奋图强了。但是这么可爱的家乡，这么多这么棒的朋友，这么多好吃的榴莲，一个星期唱ｋ一次，幸福得很。每天睡醒就和家人吃早餐，下午就看看报纸上上网，傍晚就约朋友喝喝茶，晚上就乘着冷气看港剧，累了就睡觉。这是一种，没得怨幸福到爆炸的生活。

也开始担心着自己的未来。

有时觉得自己很勇，有时像只乌龟。米雪说，去面试时，他们最爱问

"Why you choose this job?"

"What do you c urself in these five years?"

"I need this job because I need money"

"I will become a shop owner"

这是最笨的回答，也是我最真诚的答案。

不行，我要当个有钱人！凭自己实力的那种。

最近发现我的外婆，老了。

岁月的流逝摧残了她的青春，在他的脸上留下了痕迹。

于是我和弟弟常常带她出来喝咖啡。我无法想象，我妈妈老了的那一天，也无法想像自己老了的那一天。

她总是那么爱吃，这个遗传了给我妈，在遗传给我。同时，也警惕着我，要好好照顾自己的健康。要当个老人，我也要当个拿Chanel的老太婆。不孝的孩子，不要也罢。

昨天和一群朋友吃火锅，婉婷的生日。好赞！当我们在大鱼大肉的时候，我的脑子里总是浮现着在柬埔在和印尼看过的小朋友们的样子。我更珍惜眼前的生活了。

人生好像越来越好玩了，有幸福，有快乐，有烦恼，有刺激，有遗憾。

突然，我的人生多了一个遗憾。

Happy Father's day

亲爱的明星老豆，对不起，迟来的祝福，一样的真心。祝您父亲节快乐！

老爸今年都六十了，还常常讲说自己五十岁，好啦也无可否认你的脸没那么老啦。

看来你的大儿子可以继承你的babyface，史上最成功的娃娃脸...

明年的双亲节，我已经有能力用自己赚来的钱给你们个买一份好的礼物了，等着瞧！

Looking for job day.

BluE jUne

First, I would like to wish one of my buddy- Mr.Onn zai Happy 21st Birthday~!

FrenZ iN hearT forEveR!

I have been here for 3 weeks. Although it's fun to be a "fei ren", it's quite boring too. When I was just living in the castle and got no school work, no homework to do.
Thankx Jia Hao and friends for making me there- Look Out Point (small genting)

At least I can tell that I have been there before.. haha!

We had our Gasoline dinner there and enjoying taking picture tat night.

Well, I am happy to c you too Mr.Jia Wei as... The both sweet couples were just trying to make me look so "special" when walking with them.. Thanx anyway! muakz!

许久没回家，家豪还卖起章鱼小丸子来了。超爱吃的哟！

昨天还拉了我们到场试吃别的材料制成的小丸子。朋友，你是赞的啦！

And thanx for that day, 12am in Lukut I still can eat Tako Yaki. THANX!!!!

It's quite hurt to know that you keep telling a lie to me actually, maybe hiding something too?

Yup, but actually the truth is expected. And I will never trust people easily anymore, again, NOMORE!

But sometimes it's true that just don easily get into a relationship if you are not ready for it.

And I actually quite happy that I am still the friend of him as we never started anything.

Friendship seems more important to me than anything.

Yeah, finally I did what I promise to myself ( create a video clip using the song of eason).

Uploud tomorrow~ (^.<)p

Blue June.

For my dearest

My dearest,

We have been gaining something while we are losing another.
我想我可以明白你的感受。也知道在这种时候，当局者真的听不进任何人的劝导。

请让我站在爱情治疗师的角度为你解开一切谜团吧？哈哈！

1. 为什么明明相爱，却又不能在一起？
相信你也听过，爱，不一定要拥有她，但拥有的时候就一定要爱她。
很多时候，我们并不是不爱她，而是表现的方法不对。而当你发现这些错误的时候，往往都是在她离开你以后。是，你知道她依然很爱你，但是为什么不能像以前那样开心的在一起？因为，她受伤了。心里有了伤，是需要时间去痊愈的。真爱不就是要看到她开心吗？既然让她快乐的泉源已经不是自己，又何必执着？

2. 为什么他可以那么绝情，说离开就离开？
由始至终，我依然相信人心是肉做的。你们之间的记忆是谁也代替不了的。有些话你一定听说过，一条绳子拉的太紧的时候，是会断的。既然他有了这样的决定一定有他的理由，而我们能做的就是尊重他人，也尊重自己。没有人能够预测自己的未来，这个世界没有一定的绝对。爱情国度里，我们常常爱的太深而忘记了自己。现在你应该做的，是把自己成为更好的人，想想当初他是为什么爱你的？如果连自己都不懂得爱惜自己，又怎么能让别人来爱你呢？

3. 没有了她，我好像失去了全世界，我找不回自我，我失去了方向。
没有了她，地球依然会旋转，太阳依然放晴，人们一样忙碌于自己的工作。很多人把感情放得太深，导致无法解脱自己。你可以为了他放弃全世界，甚至觉得只要能让他回到你身边，做什么都可以。失恋的人们喜欢钻牛角尖，不断地问自己为什么，为什么。把自己锁起来，不让任何人进入你的世界，到头来你什么也得不到，他不会因为你不断地折磨自己而回到你身边。周杰伦都有唱“跌倒了就不敢继续往前走为什么人要这么的脆弱堕落？多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去，我们是不是该知足，珍惜一切就算没有拥有..."好，我支持你，请你放纵一下你自己，累了就收拾自己破碎的心，擦干眼泪继续往前走，记得，你是一个男人。这只不过是一个过程，一种过渡期，离开旧爱就像坐慢车，看透澈了心就会晴朗了。

其实我知道，再多的劝告对现在的你是没有帮助的，但是我依然要讲，会分析。我不知道自己有没有这样的资格去讲这些话,但是,解铃还须系铃人,一切都掌握在自己手中.要或不要而已.


爱情就是这么的奇妙。对的人，时间，地点才能撮合一段美好的爱情。只有挥别错的，才能和对的相逢。但是,凡事还得先尝试争取,不要留下遗憾.至少我们努力过. 如果注定不可以,至少对得起自己.

加油,我们永远会在你的身边支持你!

Bali AloHa

时间过得真快，没想到这么快就可以挺着黑到发烫的皮肤坐在这里跟大家分享我的巴厘岛之旅。
08.06.2009- 11.06.2009
Pictures posting failed. To be continued...

"你可曾听说有个芭厘岛，就在那印度尼西亚..." I heard this song when I was very young. Now, I can finally go to the place to take a look, how beautiful it is.

The place that we reached at the first day is called "Denpasar"-Airport.
Thankx for the lovely flower that can basically symbolize Bali, and the first dinner that we had was just great!沙沙的海浪声，踩着沙滩，吹着海风，吃着我最最爱的炭烤海鲜大餐-Got crab, fish, prawn and so on..And the best thing was, it is one set for each person but not the whole plate to share! 那不就是所谓的人间天堂吗..?!And that place is called Legian.

Our hotel is just driving me crazy. Luckily after complaning, they improved 90%.
Sister don even dare to close the door when taking bath.

导游叫Sauwadi(kap? ^.<)。不知道是不是家人比较少看到长得象马来人的人吃猪肉，所以觉得特别奇怪（学校很多这样的朋友所以我看习惯了）。这个岛上有80%的人是Hindu,所以反而比较难吃到牛肉。那里的艳阳高照，奇怪的是我居然没有流汗，凉风阵阵。

Some of the places that I have visited- Tanah Lot, Monkey Forest, Lake Batur, and some of the temple that are very famous there.

Monkey Forest is full of monkeys (废话).They dont really scare of people, I think they are quite cute! The penjaja there were just trying to sell us the things. Yes, we aunty love to buy shorts and those accessories.

值得一提的点还包括了男人神圣的那一棍。几乎整个岛上的每个角落都能看见它的存在（当然是锁匙圈之类的东西啦）而且什么颜色什么size都有，而我到现在都无法了解它的意义或代表性在哪里？..And my brother bought 4 of the key chains. He hang it on his bag.One day, that little bird dropped on the floor when we havin breakfast...
“Wahahahahahahaha!阿Boy你的那条去了哪里？”（haha!）
“咦？！不见了？！！”(HAHAHA!)
“跌在那个椅子旁边！！”（WAHAHAHAHAHA!）
然后他就默默地捡起来再逗回去...hahaha!! StuPID!!!

在那里几乎每天都吃Buffet，而当你走出餐厅时，上万个小贩围着你买手信时，记得要知足。巴士开了，他们继续拿着重重的包袱，寻找下一个客人。大家都是人，为何命运会这样的安排。导游说这个岛的经济来源是旅客。不久前的爆炸案有影响到了那边的经济幅度，但已慢慢好转。

我从来不知道，我有一个酱三八的弟弟。但要不是他好像师奶酱会讨价还价，我的钱很快就拜拜了。

RM1= Rp 3000
“30,000 satu ah?! 2 helai 30,000 la!! (Rupiah)"
“喂，人家已经很残了你不要杀价杀到降过分啦！20,000一件啦。”
然后他不要管我继续坚持，通常都会成功买到。然后...
“所以讲你笨就是笨，15，000他一定卖的！”

顺便告知即将去那里的朋友，卫生棉超便宜，记得带多点回家。

It's our summer day!!Our beach time!!
yoYOYO!~We went to the beach in the morning. When we reach, there were almost 10++ people surrounding us and ask for ..
" You want tatoo? can tik..! "
" You want lotion?"
" You want manicure?"
" You want sarong?" ... .. ...
I am sorrybut... how should I say? Mayb most of the asian will just say thank you and ignore you...And when we havin our sun tan, someone pass by and say :" Magic box!!" Then he start to play his magic at the beach and want us to buy from him... erm. Alright, that was cool actually..haha!

I LOVE BEACH!!!!!
The beach is super clean.半身在水里都能看见自己的脚指。（我知道我的腿没有很长）
只是当我们在尽情享受着日光浴的同时，小贩们又会突然间拍你的肩膀。
"You want massage?"
"You want towel?"
I dont want, I don WANT, I DONT WANT!!!!"
Of course they love european more, something that we can get it for RM 10, they sell them US 10 dollar...it's just OMG!

And now I become a black sexy lady!Yo check it out!
One of the uncle - group member asked me how many marks do I give for the trip. I said 70%.
It's not totally about the food and the place, It's about the moment that we sharing together with our family.Well, that was the first time we all have our wine in a bar, and I almost drunk again...isnt fun?!Yeah~! Cool!

当废人的日子真舒服。难为了孤独的老人-哥哥一个人在那边打拼。哈哈！
Dont "look down" me, I will get a good job soon!

Pictures coming soon.

Graduation Fashion Show 2009

Video coming soon!

~My collection~

Finally, I walk out from the school after 3 years time- after the graduation fashion show 2009.
It will be the best memory that I ever had for the past 3 years.

Dad and mum, I hope I have did a good job for you all!Yeah, of course I am not the best, but at least got put in effort right? Haha!

My collection titled “Touched by an Angel”. It is basically inspired by the Triangel dolls that given from my friend and mama. I believed in the doll’s legend. And I know my prince is waiting for me there!haha…

Too bad that the wigs that I prepared for my show cant be use on the stage. And it cost me S$100 for just renting. I am sorry family, and I will earn back the money soon!

I m just into purple that day. Though I have been thinking to make myself very “chanel” look on the day. Why purple? Ah ah…my mama likes it!And I do.


I went to my friend’s hotel to take bath before the things started. JingPing from Shanghai. I had a conversation with her mum and friends and they are all very friendly and ask me to go Shanghai for a trip. It’s a best thing to have friends all over the world, isn’t?And that was the first time I said hello to people like this: 伯母你好，我叫指纹。

I love when my dad’s car stopped at downstairs waiting for me-when it happens in Singapore!
So you what do you think about the backstage of a fashion show?

Oh my god! The zippers almost spoiled!And I cant zip it up!Thanx to the dresser on the day. You safed my life! Oh my god!!Are you kidding me?! The button of the shirt dropped!! Then I quickly tucked in the shirt, and thanx to the model, she put her hand at the part when walking on the stage so that people cannot c..haha!Long time never stand on the stage, I was so excited when standing at the backstage looking at the models cat-walking. Especially when the host speak “Designer-Cheok Zhi Wen”.(I should have put my name as Zwen Cheok, nicer mah..haha!) I saw my family just sitting in front of the stage with camera and look so happy and excited, I almost cry. I bet everyone of us had the same feeling as me, aren’t you?

台上一分钟，台下十年工。I think this is the best word to describe a show like this. We have been spending one year to complete all these things and on the stage, it is just 2 mins for you to present. And design, you will never know who will like your design, who doesn’t.

After the show, the model came to me and say” I lost my bra”. What?! Ok then we all just dig everything at the super highper messy place. “I found your bra!”…

Too bad that I didn’t manage to take picture with all of my friends that day, anyway I am happy to be here, knowing you all as my friends. I will keep all of you in my heart, now and forever.

Me and Jingping stand at a corner at the backstage.
“好帅哦！”(Man model)
“随便一个都可以。”
“对，随便一个都可以”(可以以身相许)

看见朋友一个个上台得奖，我很感动。一起奋斗的日子在今天结束了。
我把东西收拾好了，却忘了摆在自己桌子上的全家幅。对了还有一件杰克！我果然还是一个凡走过必留下痕迹的人。所以，我不适合当杀人凶手。

在此，我要衷心感谢我的家人（Mama,Baba,BoyBoy,Biak Biak,KorKor,Michelle, Sayi,Beyi），
没有你们的鼓励我没有今天。（就让我老土一下啦）
尤其是妈妈，不断地赚钱供我读书，才能让我有今天的成绩，让我以一个Fashion designer的身份站在台上鞠躬。
谢谢同学，让我在奋斗的路上不感到寂寞。
谢谢某些老师的指导，让我在这三年内增值了不少。
谢谢马来西亚的朋友，在我抓狂的时候听我发牢骚。
谢谢你，谢谢命运，让我找到我自己。